Good Evening

Hello Fellow Bloggers. I cannot believe it has been SO long since I have last checked in.
I have made it. I am a teacher. And I love it! It was so scary and the days are long, and some are so tough!, but it is worth it. I love all of the boys. They each have something so unique to bring to the table.

Things with Chris are going great. He has been sober now for two years. Can you believe it?? I can't. Things have changed so completely. I look back on that time of my life with amazement. I wonder often...how did I get through it? How did I ever fall asleep at night? It seems like I was such a different person - which really, I was. I remember all the little things that I did or didn't do that were so different and how I got through it. It is so ... such a lifetime ago.

I just wanted to give a quick update. I have been incredibly busy and have really forgot all about this...this time in my life that feels like a million years ago. But I will check in more frequently. I hope I can be of help to anyone who needs it. If I made it through that, and it could spring up anytime, I know anyone else can.

Sorry.

Hello all. Please don't want to kill me or make me go through some horrible "married to an addict" life. Yeah, I don't know what that was. My pathetic attempt at some sort of joke. Anyways, it has been more than two months since I have been on here. I know I suck.

Things are going well. Yet everytime I write that here, I feel as if something will come crashing down, or like I am being incredibly naive. It IS possible for things to get well again, isn't it? They aren't always going to be horrible?

There has been maybe two times at most in the past months where his eyes looked suspicious. But he acted normal. I don't know. He is staying strong in his probation and passing all of his drug tests.

I have found new friends at work and have found joy in doing my own thing. Now that the weather is nicer, I can go out and walk when he is not there. I am kept busy by moving things to our new apartment, and studying for an exam for a career change I am embarking on. I am kept busy with my own friends' problems so I no longer focus on my own.

And the best thing is, I have started to forgive. I really have. I may have said that before. But I have been better at letting go and I am even laughing a little now-a-days. It's not easy, but I try.

I will try, TRY!, to update more, but I admit that it will not be easy. This site has now been blocked at work, and I usually forget by the time I get home.

In the meantime, can anyone tell me what happened to Cuntface McBitchfuck??

At my parent's

I tell you, the computer life is not coming easy with me lately! Now my wireless card died. Yes, it really sucks.

I am house-sitting and dog-sitting while my parents are in Italy for almost two weeks! Yay for them! But, I would like to get on my own computer and read Cunty and type my own Cunty and do all sorts of things that my parents wouldn't approve of. But I can't because my wireless card hates me. So now I have to wait in the mail for one to be sent to me. It sucks. The senders better hurry up or I will have to kick some sender's b-u-t-t.

I am in a rare mood today. I am feeling better and optimistic about the job - finally. I have my own cases now and I am still the secondary person on them, but that is fine. I need time to learn. I am also getting to know the people I work with better and I am starting to like them as well.

Last night I went out with my best friend and we had a few drinks. We were supposed to go out for lunch today with S but my friend is not answering her phone. I hope everything is okay. Also, for those of you who were concerned and who remember, she (Rae) ended up breaking up with that guy. The possessive one. He still calls and she still fights with him, but they are no longer together. I feel really bad. She went through a lot for him and is left with nothing.

My ex-friend who was my ex-lover, for all of you who remember that, called yesterday and I did not answer the call. I was proud of myself for that.

I really want to get back to reading everyone's blogs and being at my parent's is the perfect time to do that, if only I had my computer. I hope it will be soon. I miss the cats and birds at home, but Chris has been going over there to spend time with them and I have went for a little each day as well.

All right, that was a jumbled heap of information but I do not have much time and I hate being in this centipedie basement. Until next time!

Quickly!

I am at my parent's again - for a brief period to check things out. :) I am sorry I cannot keep up-to-date on people's blogs...it kills me!!

I am hoping to order a new hard drive tonight or tomorrow though, so I should be back soon. Thanks for all your kindness and support, and I promise when my computer is up and running I will be back to read everyone's and catch up!

My new job...it's going okay for now. I don't know much - I have to attend a lot of training next week and at the end of this week. Also, I don't do well with change and am having a hard time. I do not feel like I am fitting in (normal) and feel a little depressed. But that is how I always am about change...I know that about myself.

I promise to expand when I can write longer. This sucks!! Please don't kick me out of Cuntface; I will write and catch up as soon as I have my own computer! I think my parents just seeing the word CUNTFACE on their computer would freak them out!

I'll be back soon!! Keep me in your thoughts! Please don't forget me!! I will expand soon. Miss all of you cyber people. :)

Florida

Well after a long hectic day of flying and driving, I am finally here - Florida! I cannot guarantee I will be on every day to chat and talk. We brought the laptop in case we are bored, or in case we need to find something to do around here.

I am tired and stressed out. We got into the condo and our room had not even been cleaned! I do not know where we will sleep tonight. Sleeping on someone else's nastiness is NOT appealing to me in the least.

Also, I am homesick. I am a huge dork, but I have always been like this. I am sorry for my dear husband, but that is just the way I am. Hopefully I will snap out of it by tomorrow. Anyways - that was just a quick update! Try to check in more later!