Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Weight Decrease

Today is the first day of my weight loss. I have never had to go on a diet before in my life, and I certainly do not need to now. But I used to be a lot smaller and as I was trying to put on my summer clothes this weekend, I found that it was not going quite as well as before. I used to just be able to pull this cute little jean skirt right up, and it would ride on my hips. But now, my hips could barely squeeze into it!

Chris insisted it is just my hips getting wider with age. I told him he had no clue what he was talking about and was very emotional as I needed his help in yanking it off. It broke my heart. And so by the end of this week, I have a goal. I will not tell you what the goal weight is, but I WILL achieve it. I want to be what I once was.

This is very hard for me. So hard in fact, it is hard to even write about. But my metabolism used to be incredible. I could eat and eat and eat and not gain a single pound. But not only have I gained one pound, I have gained more than ten. I could attribute this to sitting at home, waiting for my husband to call or just come home, so I ate, ate and ate. Ice cream is my favorite.

The thing is, I can't ENTIRELY blame it on him because I used to eat all the time. Even before his stupidity and before I was married. So my metabolism is either catching up, or the eating late at night is.

Either way, I crave to fit into those skirts again and I WILL by the end of two weeks at most. It is time to limit my intake. Big time.

At the same time this is happening to me, Chris is blossoming up before my eyes. I quite like it actually. Before, he was so skinny, so thin. Not unhealthy looking, but completely thin and not gaining weight. Now his little tummy is popping out, the way it was when we were teenagers, and he is fattening up in healthiness. He never stops eating. He could eat dinner and five minutes later, be hungry for more. He eats ICEE-S like there's no tomorrow, and drinks Mountain Dew like it's going out of style.

So we are both fighting weight battles together. He is gaining happily, while I am trying to lose. However unhappily it is for me.


Alan said...

Don't be discouraged. I, too, was able to eat anything and everything for years with no weight gain. In fact, I was extremely underweight.

In the past 5 months, I have put on 30 pounds. I now realize that my metabolism has slowed, and I need to do something about it.

You're giving me some inspiration to do that.

April said...

It is quite a bummer isn't it? To take for granted such skinniness. At least, in my case. I just took it for granted. And now it appears that I am going to have to work hard at maintaining it! It really sucks.

No more late night ice cream treats, no more eating until my belly felt like it would burst.

I don't know how I gave you inspiration but thank you! And good luck to you as well!

thejunkyswife said...

The too-tight clothes thing sucks! I am sitting at the computer right now with my pants unbuttoned. I've gained about 20 pounds in the months since I've been dealing with my husband's recovery...at first, I was so depressed I was eating everything and lying around all the time.

Getting my body back is my next big project. Maybe we should work on it together!

April said...

Strange, isn't it? I put on 20 pounds since my husband's addiction came out as well. And I too, would sit around and eat and do nothing into the wee hours, waiting for him to come home.

Also, I sit at the desk with my pants unbuttoned often too. :)

This certainly is a big project and I am embarking on it now. Yes, I would love to work on it together! Someone to complain to, who knows exactly what I'm going through.