Sunday, March 02, 2008

I'm back

Wow, I can't believe it's been more than a month since I have posted. I didn't for quite some time because everything seemingly was going okay. But he was still being his stupid immature self. The thing I think about him is that he is really hung up on himself. I don't mean that he is full of himself because of his good looks or any of that crap; I mean that he only thinks of himself. Which we all knew and know was the problem, but he still doesn't understand that he needs to be responsible to other people at some points in his life.

So about a week before Valentine's, he went to the casino. However, he didn't tell me that. And for weeks he had been asking me to go and for weeks I had been saying no. And on this particular night, I was calling and calling and calling and calling and nothing. Finally, he called, saying he lost track of time and was at the casino trying to "win money" FOR US. Ridiculous, I know. A week later, the night before Valentine's, he disappeared again because he was "stuck in traffic." So I kicked him out. The night before Valentine's Day. The next time we talked, the next day, he stated that he finally realized he was "trying to be independent." I said "big deal." He said that it was a big deal for him because he had never really placed his finger on it.

I took him back (surprising right?) and since then, it has been the complete opposite. He has answered every time I called. He has been home at the time he has said he would be. He has been acting like a man - showering every day, shaving when necessary, spending time with me and not always playing video games. He has been a husband. It has been a welcome change.

We will see if he stays like that, but I certainly like what I see. Maybe I should not get too used to it or get my hopes up too high, but I am liking the new Chris. I hope that thing he "realized" really sticks with him.


Anonymous said...

As the girlfriend of an x-crack user (for now) - I'd have to beg you to NOT let your expectations get ahead of you...please. I learned the hard way. Hang in there!!

Al-Anon Blogger said...

Amen, sisters.

thejunkyswife said...

I'm glad to hear from you, and glad things are good for today.

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Michael said...

I hope to read more of this as a husband going through now a second bout of relapse this time out of 7 months of a divorce I feel for you and yes shes back this time for me with 4 different groups, 2 different therapist, marriage counseling and a bunch of dwindling promises so far but I'm hoping for more this time for me and the kids sake and as much as I know she tries its the "I dont understand why you wont trust me comments" that are wearing me down.

Mantramine said...

Um... where the hell have I been? And why did you drop of my reads list?

Am reading back. sounds like you have been going through the ringer and then some.

Hope things are still going well